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Wednesday, November 9th, 2022 03:53 pm
As someone who gets a lot of political news, reads a lot of political news, is married to someone who checks Real Clear Politics every day (spousal unit is far more conservative than I am and he's not having a good day), and who has sat in on dozens of meetings with highly paid political consultants going on and on and on (and on and on) about the red wave, I was happy with yesterday's results, even if I continue to be horrified that a full 49% of the American electorate are .... ahem... do not see the world as I do. Thank you Gen Z and I continue to be deeply embarrassed by white women generally and especially those in my age cohort. Old white lady Privilege. It's a helluva of a drug.

Why do people not yet realize 1) Rs are lying in their fake polls and 2) a significant cohort of the electorate will not answer phone calls even of people they know! Stupid polls.

I wish the Ds could have held onto the House but give the rampant gerrymandering that wasn't going to happen. I was very pleased to see Fetterman do so well and really wish that Senate wins could have been pulled out in WI and OH. Vance? Really? WTF? And I'm very sad for Texas and really wish that Stacey had been able to beat that snake Kemp.

Also, I'm shocked, really shocked that adult recreational use didn't pass in North and South Dakota or ARK.  I'd given several speeches predicting passage.  Oops.  I"m wondering if we're seeing the State Farm bureaus finally get organized.  Weed legalization ignores typical political boundaries.  It's hugely popular and SD had passed it in 2018 but then the bat shit cray Governor sued to stop it.  ND had a similar measure pass its lower legislative body.  So, I dunno.  But maybe it's a bit like what you see in Kentucky and Senator Mitch McConnell -- they don't give a damn about cannabis unless it's hemp -- they LOVE hemp and hemp derived cannabinoids.  However, due to poor cultivation practices, States like KY have a HUGE problem with "hot" hemp crop -- it's too high in delta-9 THC to be legal hemp (0.3% or less on a weight basis) but too low in THC to be marketable as marijuana.  it's basically just crap marijuana.  (I do a LOT of weed work).

In any event, I guess Elon Mush has been blathering in a Twitter thing all afternoon in a desperate attempt to keep advertisers. There's a whole thing where maybe you'll have to pay $8 a month for people to see your Tweets? Whut? I dont' even know. And now apparently they've decided to turn Twitter into... yes... a crypto Paypal or Venmo? But they promise returns! Fantastic returns! And debit cards!
I'm not a banking regulator -- but there's like -- A LOT.  Apart from the SEC, FTC Financial Services, Division and CFPB (you wanna bet Director Rohit Chopra has got staff on it already) and the assortment of federal and state banking authorities... I can't even imagine what this mess looks like.  Ponzi scheme comes to mind.  LOL.  it's pathetic.





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Monday, October 25th, 2021 02:13 pm
So a whole bunch of my favorite people in the world flew into town to celebrate my birthday. We went to a Renn Festival, played Cards Against Humanity with our own "edits" as in black card, "What do they teach in these...." and answers such as "Wild Dryad Tree Sex" and "Further Up and Further In." You get the picture.
And we found a bottle of Cabernet wine bearing the "Edmundo" label and of course bought it! And drank it. Then went back and got some more. 3 bottles of Edmund were spent. AND WE NEED FIC ABOUT EDMUND RETIRING TO RUN A VINEYARD AND BACCHUS COMING TO VISIT.

Someone gave a presentation on BTS. We baked a lot and ate an enormous quantity of carbohydrates. It was AMAZING.
One gift was, no lie, a Narniapoly -- Monopoly style board game with spaces such as "Otter Romp. lose 75 Turkish Delight" and "You've been audited by a Lone Island Banker, pay 25 Turkish Delight."It is AMAZING. Pictures below, with 3D printed figurines including a Gryphon, a Welsh Corgi, Aslan, Susan, Lucy, and Tumnus.

We had two baristas who made amazing drinks with whip and caramel and froth and espresso shots.

It was so, so wonderful and I have the best time and we all of course want to do it again IMMEDIATELY.
Everyone was vaxed by the way and we all tested, either before leaving home or rapid tests at the AMAZING rental house. Some pics below. They got me a crown. I cried many times.

And I encourage everyone to check out remix that went live!! ( I STILL OWE REVIEWS OF NFE. So far behind. ACK). There are some lovely stories by Nasimwrites, Vialethe wingedflight, embraidery, Liz Culmer and other favorites.

I wrote a thing for the incomparable and amazing syrena_of_the_lake and it's part of the "museum-verse" Narnia AU that [personal profile] snacky started. I had so much fun with it. Syrena has written for me for remix at least twice,

The Scrubb Method (the fighting dragons with you remix) (4290 words) by rthstewart
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Jill Pole/Eustace Scrubb, Jill Pole & Eustace Scrubb
Characters: Eustace Scrubb, Jill Pole, Original Female Character(s)
Additional Tags: Talking Animals, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Modern Narnia, Narnia-Museumverse, Background Jill/Eustace
Summary: Rumors of the Pevensies Reborn are circulated widely throughout Paravel City. Teekicheek, Head Librarian of the Royal Archives, finds the fans annoying but otherwise hasn't given it much thought. She's got a thesis to write and a lack of credible source material.

Read more about the remix I received. Or just skip to the pics! )

HERE ARE THE AMAZING PICS FROM MY BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!! AREN'T YOU ALL AWESOME?!














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Friday, October 1st, 2021 07:23 pm
Yeah Covid sucks.  but hello!  How are you?
I've not been this busy with work since the days when I was a baby person doing litigation from the late 80s to early 90s.  Damn. 

Anyway, my spawn has graduated college and my spousal unit has retired. 

The Narnia Fic Exchange is live and the collection is really really amazing this year.  I have one story in it I picked up as a pinch hit and reveals will be on Sunday.  I'd rec some things but I've not been able to go through the collection yet and everything I've read so far has been terrific and I'm just going through it i the order they are posted.  So, just use that handy filter or read the summaries and dive in.  It's so superior to practically anything.

I haven't had time to do more reading because all week I've been trying to mentor a baby hire in How To Write.  My goddess, babies don't know anything even if they have had 4 years of college, 3 years of law school, and a specialist degree on top of that.  How do you teach writing?  I mean really, really teach someone to do it well?  This isn't an entirely rhetorical question.  I've got a BIG Milestone birthday this week.  Like humongous.  As in, OMG, aren't you grandmother yet?? People keep telling me I don't look a day over ... gasp choke... 50 so yeah.  Do the math.  Anyway I have an idea for a birthday gift to me.  I'll post more this weekend. 

Black Widow! Shang-Chi! The Expanse!  Star Wars Visions! Falcon and Winter Soldier! Loki! Wandavision! Leverage Redemption! Fall baking shows! Top Chef! What have you binge watched and loved?  What have you read and loved? What have you baked and loved?  I've personally seen The Old Guard about 8 times. Before Delta hit, were you able to do something super fun?

I hope you are healthy!

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Saturday, November 7th, 2020 09:49 pm
Kamala Harris addresses the nation for the first time as vice president-elect  | Daily Mail Online

In her Suffragist white
AP reposted here
And that feeling you have?  It's the unclenching of your jaw and the easing between your eyes that's been the stress of the last 4 years.  Maybe we can sleep tonight.

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Wednesday, April 8th, 2020 09:04 am
Thanks so much to everyone from my last post.  Good news.  The shipments were slowly released, one on Sunday, one and Monday and the last one about 11 PM last night.  I refreshed the shipper website and saw CLEARED with a delivery of 10:30 this morning.  So, phew, masks on their way to an assisted living facility and I did sleep better last night.  So it's all a hot pile of flaming dumpster but this, at least, got done.
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Saturday, April 4th, 2020 10:18 am
So for those who have followed me for awhile, you know that I work in the greater DC area and in food and drug regulation and policy.  There was my life prior to March 6 where I was sending cheery emails to clients about going to lunch at the Blue Duck Tavern and getting ready for big presentations on pharmaceutical supply chain regulation and logistics, drug importation, and cannabis. 

And then it hit.  Every day is wrestling with new problems, new urgencies, and conference calls.  So many conference calls with those trying to get food, drugs, and medical products to patients and healthcare professionals.  Invoking force majeure in contracts and helping clients cancel their events and conferences and hoping that the hotels won't be dicks about it and that insurers will pay up when someone actually had the foresight to get event cancellation insurance with a pandemic disease rider.  (And really?  You really think we're going to be able to hold an event at your facility in May when the Army Corps is building a hospital there?  REALLY?) And I'm not on the healthcare delivery side -- which is as grim as you would expect for those advising hospitals and clinics. 

Masks.  So many masks and everyone trying to get them.  As I've typed this, 3 emails on masks on a Saturday morning and I've already had one conference call.  Every night, about 11 PM, I bundle up the day's COVID events and send them out. 

If any of you need information on SBA, payroll protection, and some of the other things in the most recent CARES Act, let me know via email and I can send what I've got. 

Anyway, this is to say that I'm sorry I haven't been there to read your own posts and comments.  With my inbox at over 300 unread DW notifications and about 1,000 posts to the three sentence ficathon, I've given up.  I love you all and wish you all health and safety most of all. 

There are no days anymore, just yesterday, today and tomorrow.  There are only 3 parts to my day, caffeine, workout, alcohol. 

We're fine, so far, though our county has over 500 cases so far.  Periodically, my allergies really bother me and I panic but when they disappear after 2 diphenhydramine tablets, so I know it's just trees having sex.  I got pretty hysterical last night when I couldn't get my microphone to work to play D&D.  Damn it, it works for Skype, Zoom, GoTo Meeting, and Elevate.  WHY WON'T IT WORK WHEN I WANT TO PLAY?

I have noticed a lot of guest readers to my fic and a few comments.  Thanks so much to those that are reading.  It means the world to me when I'm on my 6th conference call of the day and hearing about the dire condition of the med-surg supply chain to see a notification of a comment pop up.  Thank you.  I've found I'm reading my own fics for comfort late at night when I can't sleep because of a shipment of KN95 masks being held up in Anchorage.  Which, arrogant, sure, but that's the way it is right now.  There is yesterday, there is today, and there is tomorrow.  Time to get back to work.

Love you all,
Ruth



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Sunday, March 8th, 2020 02:02 pm
I've been on travel and gearing up for presentations the last month.  Yesterday,  I was on the way to another conference when it was cancelled 2 hours before I would have boarded a plane. So suddenly, yesterday at 4 PM, I had nothing to do.  I binged 4 episodes of Project Runway (Don't tell me how it ends but I've been very amused by Victoria from Moldova -- I've been to the Moldovan part of Romania in the 90s). 

And now I've attempted to tackle a backlog of hundreds of three sentence fics and my DW notifications -- I've got well over a thousand separate entries and emails ... it's not happening. 

So, alas, dear F-list, if something important or terrible or wonderful has happened and I've not seen it or responded, by deepest apologies.  Please share what's happened in the last month if you are so inclined.

For me, it's all been work -- so much work.  Weed -- specifically cannabidiol or CBD and prescription drug importation have taken over my life.  I won't bore you with the details but my powerpoints are gorgeous.  I warn you, I'm not kind to either CBD (mostly fraud, lotsa bad data, the placebo effect is profound and if it works, it's probably the THC) or importing drugs from Canada (leave the drugs in Canada, import the pricing model and repeal the non-Interference clause) and I'm very sad I never got to vote for Warren, Harris, Klobuchar, or Gillibrand.  Oh look, another old white dude.  But god this is all for nothing if we don't take the Senate.

And as for COVID-19, well, our health infrastructure is shit and even being well off and well insured won't protect you.  Millionaires will have to wait for hospital beds too.    I'm not panicking for myself or my son who is traveling on spring break.  We both have robust immune systems and practice good hygiene.  My spousal unit, on the other hand, has the immune system of a 90 year old, is vulnerable to respiratory disease due to pneumonia 2 years ago,  does not have the spoons to remember things like washing his hands and would never, ever deign to use hand sanitizer.  Stress induced memory loss and depression is a thing and wow, I just hope he doesn't get too close to people on public transit.

I think the product sourcing from China is going to be an issue -- so many raw materials are sourced there -- not just pharmaceuticals and medical devices but lots of food ingredients too.  I'm very amused that Campbell's Soup is seeing a big surge -- they source about 90% of their ingredients in the US -- or maybe Mexico and Canada as part of NAFTA. This will likely spur a long overdue and important conversation about supply chain resiliency -- it had begun in the pharmaceutical space last year and I see it expanding which would be a very good thing for U.S. workers. 

So, I'm going to head to the grocery store and pick up a few things, maybe another can of tomatoes and some frozen things.  Can I get you something? 

How are you?

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Friday, December 27th, 2019 03:51 pm
So, I vented on Twitter and a bit on Tumblr but here is the whole, ugly story. 
Family Fish Feud (why poisoning guests on Christmas Eve is not in the spirit of Christmas) )

I once wrote a short story, Culinary Diplomacy, about the stress of hosting a party for 25 guests, some of whom were variations on gluten-free, vegetarian, nut-free, and dairy free.  It was REALLY hard but by gawd I did it and the number one paramount rule of hosting is DON'T SEND YOUR GUESTS TO THE ER. 

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Friday, March 22nd, 2019 10:10 am
 

Woops, long time no post.

Brief info about what I’ve been up to. Move to the next post if you're here for fannish content.

It’s been super super busy with spawn home for Spring break, spousal unit flanking appearance on CSPAN (think Imperial Guard rather than Emperor himself)
PalpatineRedGuard-TWJ


and federal cannabis policy and opioids taking over my life. No, really, they are. In the last 3 weeks, I’ve been to Florida and Palm Springs via San Francisco for presentations wherein, for one presentation, I compared preparing for federal inspections to the Fellowship scene in Balin’s Tomb… “They are coming.” I hope the FDA doesn’t find out I compared them to a cave troll…


I leave for California, again, on Monday, making two trips to CA in 2 weeks for a total of 4 overnights.

Also, after years of working out successfully on treadmills, I’ve now developed something called a plantar plate injury and am now in a boot, with an MRI scheduled, prescription strength ibuprofen, prescription custom orthotics and the order to never get on a treadmill again. Which is a problem as it’s been how I’ve kept my bone density from declining due to osteopenia. So, yeah, gotta figure that one out.

 

Also, I’m weirdly ambivalent about going to Star Wars Celebration. With everything going on, it makes me sad that I’m not more excited because I’ve never been to Celebration and it just looks like it’s going to be insane and not in a good way.

 

On the plus side, I did not have to make a vegan, gluten free, no nuts St Patrick’s Day Party. OTOH, I have many, many family members coming in April. My cousin and his wife, their daughter, her husband, and their 6 year old Star Wars mad twin boys in April right before I leave for Celebration. Then, the week after I get back, my other cousin and her husband, and then my mother in law, two sister in laws, their husbands and their 4 children all under the age of 14 arrive for Easter.

 

And we have a new dog. Did I mention the new dog? Komo? Dumb as a box of rocks. He loves watching screens.







Here he is watching Lion King,



Also this whole thing involving white male pro author writing a Narnia fanfic and the Guardian making a big deal about it has pissed me off no end. So, that’s for the next post.
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Saturday, January 5th, 2019 07:49 pm




 
Day 5

In your own space, promote three communities, challenges, blogs, pages, Twitters, Tumblrs or platforms and explain why you love them. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

So this is super fun and my recs are all over the place.
First, though I've recc'd this on Day 2, if you're into terrific fic with many different takes on the Problem of Susan, the Narnia Fic Exchange is uniformly high quality, with lots of crosses, AUs, and many other fun things. The stories are often very fem-centric -- lots of ladies. The 2018 challenge was super fem-slashy, which was just delightful. it's supportive, people comment a lot and the stories are great. The comm is here and you can find the more recent years fics here. You'll find older stories on the Dreamwidth/LJ comm.

Because it's been around for so long and she is amazing and so is the group, you can't go wrong with Club Jade, the first fan comm I ever joined after AOL Star Ladies. Founded in 1995 around the Star Wars Legends/Expanded Universe and Mara Jade and the webmistress Dunc began blogging in 2004. Tumblr is here and Twitter is here and the webpage which will eventually take you back to our Club's roots in fanfic and filk. Note that it is clubjade.net -- that's because at the time we got the domain, .the club jade .com was an Asian porn site. So we had buttons for an early con saying "Club Jade -- not the Asian porn site you're looking for."  We're a lot quieter than we used to be..  Sometime I"ll tell you about the Con where Luke and Mara got married, Mike Stackpole, Aaron Allston, and Tim Zahn attended, I dressed up as a Mardi Gras float and people thought I was getting married to the Mary Franklin (she runs the Celebration Cons now) and Elvis officiated.  The Men in Black broke up the party.

And this one is kinda out there, but it's a great interection of food, politics, agriculture, food safety, tech, biology, and North Carolina. Dr. Sarah Taber on Twitter.  I'm in some of the same business she is and I learn a lot. In the same vein, I follow John Rogers, who may lean more libertarian than I am but he's smart, funny, political, and biting and again, I learn a lot (also the writer for Leverage).
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Thursday, January 3rd, 2019 06:51 pm
Because all the cool kids are doing it and it seems like fun,



Day 1 - Talk about your Happy Place - the things that give you joy, calms you or keeps you sane.

Day 2 - Rec at least three fanworks that you didn’t create.

Day 3 - Share a favorite piece of original canon.

Day 1 -- Happy Place

My spousal unit grills me on this all the time, in the form of, where do you want to retire. My happy place involves four things: reliable internet access and my computer; dog; a well stocked and supplied baking kitchen; and some place with natural beauty and abundant wildlife. My favorite places in this regard are the areas around Grand Teton National Park and parts of Yellowstone (without all the people), Hatteras National Seashore, and the deserts of Joshua Tree and Anza Borrego.

Day 2 Recs --
This is so hard. Basically I have to rec all the fics that are posted in the annual Narnia Fic Exchange, such as these amazing Susan stories by a writer that I've followed for 10 years.


Also, this amazing Killjoys vid,
Level Up [vid] (270 words) by Scribe
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Killjoys (TV)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: Dutch (Killjoys), Johnny Jaqobis, D'avin Jaqobis, Pree (Killjoys), Alvis Akari, Pawter Simms, Fancy Lee
Additional Tags: Fanvids, Festivids, Team Feels, warning: physical triggers (flashing lights), Video Format: Streaming, Download Available, Video Format: MP4, Author's Favorite, Vidder's Favorite
Summary:
Team Awesome Force goes to war.

I"ve also received some pretty spectacular gifts.


Day 3 - Share a favorite piece of original canon.
I'm not sure why this one is so hard...I'm going to go with Star Wars.  I'm pretty happy with Luke's recognition in TLJ that the Jedi Order contributed significantly to its own demise through arrogance and blindness.  They are AWFUL in the prequels and I liked someone actually acknowledging it. I also like how the prequels seem to get so bogged down in dumb plot -- trade negotiations, really? Clone army?  what?  where?  Why?  Who?  Except that it is all part of Palpatine playing a very long game to manufacture the pretext for a war (that also marginalizes non-humans), then creates an army in order to fight that war, then isolates the Jedi who must lead that war so that no one can defend them when they are surrounded by and murdered by their trusted troops and then uses that pretext to declare himself Emperor.

I liked that everyone in Rogue One died and that Rogues became Rogues thereafter to honor that sacrifice.  In the same way, I'm still pretty pleased that Vader killed the younglings in the Temple  and I really thought that George wouldn't go there.  And that it's all Obi-Wan's fault and his a rat bastard liar. 

Also, it's Legends, so technically only EU canon but Mara Jade.  She's awesome in her very first incarnation and nothing every really improved on Mara in the first Thrawn trilogy.  Mara is an icon for self-determination and agency and I'm the person I am today, with the friends and hobbies and life that I have due to Mara Jade. 



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Monday, December 31st, 2018 01:35 pm

I've been out of touch since Christmas, ministering to McKinley who, regrettably, crossed the Rainbow Bridge yesterday. It's our first time in 24 years without a yellow lab girl in the house. Her regular vet was really downcast when she saw him on Saturday and I had hoped that she would last until Wednesday when he was back in.  Instead, we had to go to the emergency vet yesterday where she'd been over the Christmas holiday.  Once everything was set up (this always takes longer than you think) it went really, really fast (maybe 30 seconds) and was very peaceful. It was a huge relief for her.  The administering vet asked if we were ready and I bristled a bit -- it doesn't matter because she was ready and no amount of meds could relieve her pain.  She was barely conscious before we even started and I felt enormous relief for her that it was over.
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Wednesday, December 26th, 2018 08:45 am
We returned from the not all frozen North where I managed to squeeze in lovely visits with [personal profile] syrena_of_the_lake and [personal profile] psyche29 . I just adore meeting imaginary friends in Real Life and we've known each other through fic for a very, very long time.

If you did Yuletide, I hope you loved your gift and that your gracious recipient loved yours. It did seem there was more than the usual pinch hit scrambling.  What those admins can pull together every year is astounding. If you see a good story, rec me, OK?

We picked up McKinley at the hospital yesterday. I'm glad she can be at home for whatever time is left to her. Thanks so much to all of you for the kind thoughts.  This is a better, though very, very costly, outcome than I'd expected a few days ago.  She was thrilled to be home after over a week in the hospital.



She has lots of pills -- for pain, nausea, and high blood pressure and has become very resistant to pilling. Anyone have any ideas? I'm used to a dog taking your fingers off so this is a new problem.  I think we might need to go the meat route -- I remember liverwurst growing up?  Maybe there's something at PetSmart?

Also, SEE WHAT I GOT!! My spousal unit managed to track it down and I'm pretty excited.



Have you been to see any movies?  What's your favorite?  Mary Poppins?  Bumblebee?  Aquaman?  Spiderverse?

Also, wow the government shutdown sucks.  Although, the pre-published Federal Register just came out and a few folks are in if funded by non-appropriated money -- and others are supposed to trundle in for an orderly shutdown.  Ugh.  I'm sorry if it's you.  I  know this is super stressful.

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Thursday, December 20th, 2018 08:20 am
It's not secret to those who have followed me that dogs are a big part of my life. Dogs are prominent in my fic and Jina is probably best represented in my first labrador, Ghitsa, crossed over the rainbow bridge after an amazing and long life 15 years ago.
There is Thorin Corgishield, who is, at the moment, alive and well.  (The introduction of worrying fretting shepherds in H&M was due to the introduction of a worrying, fretting herding breed in a house previously occupied by labradors)


McKinley, however, has always been another story. There was the ACL surgery in 2014, the time she ate the retrieving bumper, and the neverending cycle of pain meds and infections, ears, feet, lumps, warts, growths. We got McKinley, like all of our dogs, from breeding/show kennels at 1 year of age, or a little older, when the breeders decide to not show them, don't want to breed them, and are looking to rehome them. McKinley was supposed to be a breeding bitch for an assistance dog program but they sent her back realizing that she had personality traits (in particular no desire to please her owner/handler) that they did not want handed down to generations of assistance dogs. She's dumb as a stump, in her own Labrador world of food and smells and oddly poorly socialized despite years of obedience classes -- she will still bark at people and dogs she has known her whole life. She's 12 going on 13 and the size of her file at the vet is a source of consternation and horror.

And she's been hospitalized since Tuesday (3 separate hospitals) with possible kidney and liver failure, or maybe lepto not covered by the vaccine, or maybe it's the infection that's caused the vomiting even of white rice since last week. Maybe the NSAID we tried for her severe leg pain that was supposed to pose lower risk of stomach upset and liver compromise (and did give her great mobility) has triggered a cascade. We don't know. Care is currently, conservatively going to run to 5 figures.

This is incredibly difficult. With other dogs, they have told us and we knew. They spent their last nights at home with us and we took them to the vet and were with them. With McKinley, I don't know what the right decision is and when we will know. 

So here she is in her finer moments.









 
I'm not really going to respond to comments, OK? I'm not as on top of things as I normally am (I tried making biscotti yesterday and forgot to add the butter).   I've been down this road before, there aren't any good answers, I know all about care of aged and ailing dogs, and we have truly the best vet care money can buy. 
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Thursday, September 20th, 2018 08:05 pm
So, today, I was at a meeting all day long and the subjects were very intense, emotions were high, and words like, "well, it's a problem with tone" came up a lot.  It was partially addressed at me, partly at my client, and we had to sit and politely take it because well, we do.  (Not sexism, by the way, or misogyny, just beastly internal politics).  The words no good deed goes unpunished came up a lot.  yeah.    You tried but everyone thinks you fucked it up so we're taking it away and giving it all to someone else. 

AND THEN there was a whole other separate thing going on at the same time with a very expensive super smart Batman who had been brought in to save the day about a Thing.  BUT  BUT I had to handle the Thing by myself for months before Batman arrived, and I've been worried I might have done something wrong and Batman would have to clean up my mess and that I might really have caused injury to others.  I don't *think* it was quite that bad, but I'm not sure and that worst nightmare unfolded today too. 

Also, I really really wanted to get a piece of business but I lost it to a man who was also at the meeting today.  Except, the man is nice and smart and extremely competent and thinks the world of my skills and seriously how can you get mad when someone decides to hire Captain America instead of you?  So, you can't get mad, just super disappointed that if it had been any other Avenger except for Steve, you could have kicked their ass and won the business.  Instead you just have to swallow the disappointment and say "So glad it went to you."

Anyway, very uncomfortable day where at various points I just wanted to go into the bathroom and have a good cry and one time I actually did a little bit.

So, I ate a whole chicken salad sandwich from the lunch buffet and a peanut butter cookie.  And I had Ghiradelli dark chocolate salted caramel square for dinner and large slices of watermelon.  If I'd had access to honest to goodness Minnesota Chicken and Wild Rice soup, I would eaten that.  So what about you?  When you have a super stressful day that makes you want to cry in the bathroom, do you have any comfort foods? 
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Monday, September 10th, 2018 07:48 am
Having posted my remix draft (phew and full of typos but getting there) and Star Husband, it occurs to me that I've posted/written around 13,000 words of fiction in a week.  That's... not counting the several more thousand of professional work.  I used to write 10K a week for weeks at a time and I keep thinking, how did I do that?  Oh wait, I know!
I can trace my decline in fiction to 3 things:
  • November 27, 2013 when President Obama signed the Drug Quality and Security Act into law.  I've been behind ever since -- when I teach my class, I say that in the gridlocked Congress there are two ways to get laws passed -- 10 years of negotiations among highly disparate competing coalitions to hammer out a compromise and lots of dead people in red states.  That law had both. It is my life.
  • An increasing emboldening of certain elements in the Narnia fandom particularly with Flee From Memory that were really demoralizing
  • And that those same elements signaled a rising tide of ugly that resulted in the US November 2016 election and my personal tailspin thereafter

Anyway, onwards.  RL work remains unrelenting so much so that any time I try to write fiction is really and truly keeping me from other things.  Which I must return to now!

I keep the essential message of that second chapter of Star Husband close -- resistance is hard, and you will lose but you have to keep going and no, that's not madness, but hope.  Hope is a radically subversive action.

NFE (2 stories partially started but much to do) and Xovering are next.  I'm hugely grateful to Snacky for the NFE extension as it let me better manage my badly managed time. 

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Monday, May 14th, 2018 08:12 am
So, to begin, I'd like to share the King Arthur Flour Banana Bread generator, where you can adjust the fats, flours, sugars, fiber and add ins. I thought it was pretty darn cool. I made my usual loaf of quick orange bread last night, which was fine, but in my eagerness to watch the Timeless finale live (OMG RUFUS and Indiana Wyatt Jones and Lucy Laura Croft WHUT?) I managed to omit the baking powder, resulting in lovely tasting brick of lemon poppyseed quick bread.

I fetched the spawn from college over the weekend and got all Mom when ordering his friends about in their own packing and moving out. I got positively twitchy watching one of them incorrectly pack up his minivan. And, I assume this is like all college students, where you send them out with stuff that they promptly forget they had and so they keep buying it. Spawn did say that the isopropyl alcohol I sent with him came in handy when his roommate got drunk (a frequent occurrence) and decided, with his Lacrosse teammates) to give himself a body piercing.

VERY SAD ABOUT THE EXPANSE BEING CANCELLED. GAWD I HOPE IT FINDS A HOME.  And

We went to Mother's Day events at the local Franciscan Monastery for a garden party. This is from the monastery when we took the dogs for the blessing of the animals.  My spousal unit was working to become a lay Franciscsan about 10 years ago (hence why I had so much stuff around the house about Duns Scotus, etc.)  Franciscans are very chatty and they all headed straight for the wine.  We were supposed to wait for the blessing of the food but since all the monks (or brothers?) were loading up their plates at the buffet and going for refills, we didn't wait.    Retired DC Cardinal Ted McCarrick was there and had, no lie, a GIANT stein of beer.  (He's 88).  The beer was amber and frothy and looked very good.  It was hilarious.  I might still be Catholic if he was still Cardinal.




And yeah, I know, it's a day that sucks for lots of people.  I did enjoy going to the grocery store and experienced the full spectrum of the day -- married Indian celebrating the day with his wife, single mom battling cancer, deli clerk missing her own mother who died 3 years ago, and others who don't give a damn, for whom I said simply, I hope everyone is kind to you today. 


And I thought I'd managed to fix the Borked images on Food for Thought but nope, so gotta go back and figure that out.  Ugh.  this used to be so easy with Photobucket.  I really can't figure out the new DW picture loading.  It's terrible and though I've never been good with html I didn't think I was that bad.  It shouldn't be that hard to embed pictures, right?  How are you doing it so easily and seamlessly.  [personal profile] generalleia  I'm looking at you.

I have a whole 800 words in the next chapter of the Star Husband.  Woot.  GO PATHETIC ME -- Peter, Mary, Lucy, and Asim are on their way to Joggins to visit Rita and Lucy is in a tailspin with a bad case of the depression bears.  

tiny tiny bit gawd writing used to be easy )

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Saturday, November 12th, 2016 12:17 pm
I regret to say that my experience with the bigotry, misogyny, and homophobia of the last few years prepared me for the US election results.  I found despair and disillusionment, and experienced the power of those voices, several years ago and so expected this result though I so wished to be wrong.  The only good news in this is that  this has meant my shock is not as acute because I've already been there for a while and, in my privilege, am not at risk.  Still, there has been a lot of stress baking, Corgi petting, and avoidance for the better part of 6 months.  So, I am so sorry that I've not responded to you and thank you so much for reaching out to me.  It will take awhile to get through 200+ emails and reviews on this account, never mind the dozens of unread stories.  But going forward, please understand that I can be here for you if you need it. 

So, watch this space.  I did a long blather cross-posted here on why I do not believe that women and families will lose altogether access to Plan B, drug-based contraceptives, and the pills that induce medical abortions because the process to remove FDA-approved drugs from the market when the manufacturer doesn't want to remove the product is very difficult and long.  In other words, I think for the time being, you can cross off your list, "stockpile Plan B."  That comment was long and blathery and I am not familiar with the processes by which medical devices are removed from the market, like IUDs and some implants, so I'll update with something concise soon.

When I was trying to comfort someone at 3 AM on Wednesday morning, I told him how important it was that he continue his creative efforts to tell others about the works of fiction that he enjoyed and found hopeful.  We need that more than ever, I told him, and don't let despair stop you.

I recognize in this a call to create in our fiction the world we want to live in.  The reason I returned to fandom in 2009 was that I thought we were on the cusp of creating that world in RL.  Alas, this is not true.  A quote I used in TSG attributed to Gandhi was "Be the change you wish to see in the world."**    And so, for me, it will become "write the world you wish to see."     

(**BUT, lots of people aren't ready for that call and commitment and may never be.  No pressure, OK?  This HURTS and is scary.  Grieve as you must and take your own damned time about it.)



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Wednesday, July 8th, 2015 06:57 pm
I am way, way, way too old to be pulling all-nighters for work.  My only consolation is that Mr. Spock is suffering even more than I am.  Oh, and we returned from a lovely holiday to a busted sprinkler system and 1 inch/2.5 cm of water in the basement and $$$ in ruined carpet and now we have blow dryers and dehumidifiers rented for even more $$$ blowing in the basement 24/7. 

So, I've been having to deal with Work Hell from home whilst making frantic calls to contractors and repairmen.

Blergh.
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Wednesday, June 24th, 2015 09:21 am
Gosh it's been awhile.

Remix madness has started!!! GO HERE. WRITE FUN THINGS BASED ON OTHER PEOPLE'S STORIES

I had 2 remix assignments and got both in on time, woot. Gosh, WHO WRITES 10,000 WORD REMIXES? ME OF COURSE. I'm an idiot. But you knew that. I'd love to get a madness in, I have an idea, but it may not happen -- we're off to Nova Scotia soon. cannot WAIT. I was so sad when the deadline closed because it once again appeared that the person assigned to me had defaulted -- omg I've got rthstewart, run like the wind.
But, a couple days later, a story did pop up so I'm VERY happy that someone did not run like the wind.


Work has been slow and boring and so taking forever to do and in my distraction, I managed to scrape up my car on a parking pylon garage pillar that leaped out at me. Grrr. Also, we may have to replace the car altogether so I got distracted looking at new cars and then got pissed off at car salesman. What about "only contact me by email" was unclear? Also, my spawn ran off to wilderness camp for a week without water bottles and I've been fretting about it.

I've seen Mad Max twice, LOVED IT. OMG GO SEE IT. I did not see Jurassic World though, of course, I love dinosaurs, because ehh. And I need to see the new Pixar movie, though I'm sure I'll cry through the whole thing. I saw the Rebels premiere and did enjoy it. I've not watched Orphan Black yet. I'm just tired of grimdark -- the world is such an awful horrible place from where I sit I look for true escapism from my Twitter feed and daily news. Why yes, hello depression, I've not missed you AT ALL. There was a fun article about the awesomeness of crows in WaPo here.