Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 10:56 pm
  1. DID make it to the post office and get A Parcel into the post!
  2. DID make it to THE GYM, and was Charmed to notice that one of the other regulars was wearing unexpected-by-me nail varnish.
  3. We brought home many Field Treets and I am continuing to merrily vacuum them up with my horrid little mouth!
  4. Saw the bat! Hello bat. What a good bat you are.
  5. Very much enjoyed the Graun on a photographer who spent a year following the ZSL veterinary team (NB multiple images of post mortems in there).
  6. Negative electricity prices for a while in there today meant: Much More Laundry (most of which is dry), surprise and delight at A running the underfloor heating in the bathroom (WOM FEET); b r e a d; experimental autopyrolitic oven cleaning.
Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 04:58 pm
[personal profile] goodbyebird suggested this meme at [community profile] 3weeks4dreamwidth and it sounded fun, if challenging for me, because, well:

Put your mp3 player/phone/streaming collection on shuffle, and write down the first line of the first twenty songs. Post the poem that results.


Folks, I mostly listen to Final Fantasy music, which is largely instrumental! I don't think writing 20 lines of "Doo doo doo doo DOOO doo, doo-doo-doo doo doo doo doo doo" would make a good poem. Still, I wanted to give this a try, so I did the following:

1. Have iTunes set to Autoplay, which is its default mode now.
2. Play songs until one with lyrics played.
3. Write down the first line, if it was the first time the song appeared.
4. Write down the part of the refrain, if it was the second time the song appeared.

I did take some liberties now and then. Technically, the songs from NieR: Automata (which I have not played but listened to, thanks to FFXIV) do have lyrics but they have made-up lyrics, so I opted to skip over those. I also opted for a full phrase on many songs because I thought it made more impact. For "Wayward Daughter" I chose the first line in English. Finally, I limited it to 10 songs because they were starting to get repetitive.

Here's the result:

  1. Seeking the peace of reason ("Locus" - FFXIV: Heavensward)

  2. Westward lies bleed t'ward the east ("Wayward Daughter" - FFXIV: Stormblood)

  3. Staring at death, I take a breath, there's nothing left ("Oblivion - Never Let It Go Version" - FFXIV arrangement albums]

  4. Specie tua tantum carnem adme omnes habet cultum. [Through you alone there will be worship.] ("Apocalypsis Aquarius" - FFXV)

  5. For whom weeps the storm / Her tears on our skin / The days of our years gone / Our souls soaked in sin / These memories ache with the weight of tomorrow ("Shadowbringers", FFXIV: Shadowbringers)

  6. Wanting, I lie / Too weary to die / Too lost to the ice for saving / My sins claim me, untame me ("Return to Oblivion" - FFXIV: Shadowbringers)

  7. Beneath the gazing stars / Vales deep and forests dark / Betrayed by loyal hands, Her wrath stirred ("Heavensward", from the FFXIV expac of the same name)

  8. Let go this destiny, you're caught in a trance / Ever marking time inside a dream, no sign of advance ("Band: Locus" - FFXIV arrangment albums)

  9. The road that we walk / Is lost in the flood / Here proud angels bathe in / Their wages of blood / At this, the world's end, do we cast off tomorrow ("Insatiable", FFXIV:Shadowbringers)

  10. These voices screaming to let it go (never let go) / This time I'm screaming back no no no (go on say no) / My mind's made up, yeah my fear is gone (Where have you gone?) / Open my eyes now here I come, oblivion ("Oblivion - Never Let It Go Version" - FFXIV arrangement albums]


LOTS OF FFXIV. But yeah, the soundtracks that I own are mostly FFXIV soundtracks, so that's what iTunes thinks I want to hear.

This is the full list of songs that played, minus one from Animal Crossing that was thrown at me that I didn't include because I don't play Animal Crossing. So, 25 songs (including the Animal Crossing) one to get my 10 lines, and some of those ten songs were duplicates.

Full listLocus [FFXIV: Heavensward]
Westward Tide [FFXIV: Stormblood]
Wayward Daughter [FFXIV: Stormblood]
Home Sweet Home [Final Fantasy XV: Episode Prompto]
City Ruins - Rays of Light [from NieR: Automata, but also FFXIV: Shadowbringers)
Oblivion - Never Let It Go Version [Final Fantasy XIV: Heavensward]
No Risk, No Reward [FFXVI, arrangement by Husky by the Geek]
Battle Theme (FFX)
"Apocalypsis Aquarius" [FFXV]
"Rolanberry Fields" [FFXI, arranged by the Nanaa Mihgo's]
"Crimson Sunset (Piano)" [FFXIV: Stormblood]
Shadowbringers [FFXIV, from expac of same name]
The Sanctuary of Zi'TaH [FFXI]
Song of the Ancients (Atonement) [NieR: Automata, but also FFXIV: Shadowbringers]
Piano: Serenity [FFXIV: A Realm Reborn]
Band: Locus [FFXIV arrangment albums]
Paradigm Shift [FFXII-2]
Largo from "Winter" The Seaosns [recorded by Arnie Roth playing violin]
On Windy Meadows [FFXIV Version 1.0 Limsa Lominsa area theme]
Noctis [FFXV - such a sweet song, I adore it]
Ink Long Dry: Piano [FFXIV, played by Keiko]
Insatiable [FFXIV: Shadowbringers]
Selbina [FFXI]
FFI: Chaos Temple [Arranged by Fantasy Reborn]


In a nutshell: Final Fantasy music is good! If you want to give it a try, you can find the Square Enix Music Channel on YouTube. There's also a lot of songs on iTunes and Spotify!
Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 11:47 pm
idk what the point of this post is other than i'm feeling hormonal due to my period and i'm trying to de-stress after moving to a new apartment and being scared of new things. 

anyway.

a while ago i started playing Love&Deepspace for the first time. It's the first otome game i've played and i really like it, it has much more depth than i thought and i feel like it truly has a female perspective (which is still very rare in this world...) I'm still in the very beginning of it but i instantly fell in love with Xavier. Tbh i don't really even care for the other men because they're too cocky to my taste (at least for now, maybe i'll warm up?) I'm actually going crazy over Xavier because he's so mysterious, sensitive, and a little weird. He's sooo catboy. I want more reactions out of him but he's slow to warm up and it drives me crazyyyy. In a way he reminds me a bit of Heeseung because of certain characteristics like shyness, kindness, sincerity, and a bit of a mystical aura. Those features are often linked with femininity but for me it's more like this deep intuitive spirit that has no gender or is like this yin and yang balance of both feminine and masculine in a way you can't tell them apart. Funny thing is that these features that i'm most attracted to are something i see in myself, or maybe my inner self or ideal self. 




Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 02:10 pm
The Last...

Movie I watched: Project Hail Mary
Series I finished: Dark Winds
Book I finished: The Raven Scholar by Antonia Hodgson
Book I bought: Enemy of My Enemy by Alex Segura
Book I received as a gift: Wild and Woolly Knitted Animals: A Naturalist's Notebook by Sara Elizabeth Kellner, Tanis Gray
Food I ate: Kimchi salad
Meal I cooked: Fried rice
Drink I had: coffee with almond milk
Song I listened to: "Smooth" by Santana
Album I listened to: I don't really do albums these days
Playlist I listened to: Don't really do playlists either
Concert I went to: Uhmm... Leonard Cohen about 12 years ago?
Game I played: Clues by Sam
Person I talked to: The Boy
Person I texted: my mom
Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 10:33 pm
I wrote a fic for The Pitt! Not the one I had originally been meaning to write, which I do still plan to. This one was supposed to be one I knocked out over the weekend, but it got quite a bit longer. Here it is.

a woman can't survive by her own breath alone (7491 words) by raven
Fandom: The Pitt (TV)
Relationships: Melissa "Mel" King/Trinity Santos, Trinity Santos & Dennis Whitaker, Michael "Robby" Robinavitch & Trinity Santos
Characters: Melissa "Mel" King, Trinity Santos, Dennis Whitaker, Michael "Robby" Robinavitch
Additional Tags: Trinity Santos and Dennis Whitaker are Roommates, Trinity Santos is Bad at Feelings, Canon Lesbian Character, references to past sexual abuse
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“I don’t need a fucking script, Huckleberry!” Trinity says, furious. “I can ask a girl out, jesus.”

“I mean, that’s weird,” Whitaker says. “Because you haven’t. Like, that’s what this entire conversation is about.”

Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 04:29 pm


Can you guess how old she is?
Original is here on Pixelfed.scot.

Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 05:00 pm
Guilty Until Proven Innocent (Due South):

Guilty Until Proven Innocent, by keerawa. shrift: An AU where Kowalski is a private investigator and Fraser is on trial for murder.

Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 08:49 pm

Posted by /u/0range-You-Glad

I did not order it.

There's a little card in it that the author autographed and there's a Morse code message but I can't decode it.

It's possible I signed up for something to win a free copy but it would have been a while ago because I don't remember it.

Anyone else?

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Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 04:31 pm
I've adored the two volumes in Adrian Tchaikovsky's Children of Time series (and fully intend to read the other two), but I've been daunted in trying to branch out because the guy is SO prolific. But thanks to the recommendation of someone on here, I landed on Elder Race. It's a novella--handy! I read it in airports on my way to and from Leticia, and it was absolutely right for me, because putting aside the plot, what it's about is communication across a chasm of cultural difference, when you're not sure how what you're saying is being received, and you're also not sure if what you're understanding of what you hear is what the speaker intends. And on top of that, you're dealing with vast differentials in resources and--so you arrogantly assume (you're right in some respects, but very wrong in others)--knowledge.

It's also about what's wrong with the Prime Directive, namely, that once you're watching a thing, observing a thing, you're party to it, part of it. Your act of watching changes reality. Like with photons, or whatever. Schrödinger Heisenberg etc. If you weren't there, then yes, things would just unfold however they were going to unfold, but you are there, and so if you decide not to get involved, then it means you're permitting whatever bad things might happen that you might be capable of stopping.

Don't get me wrong: messing around and getting involved can be equally bad. All I'm saying is that once you're there, you ARE involved, and doing nothing is as much of a game changer as doing something.

Nyr is the resource-having character, assailed by depression because he's realized, upon being wakened from his most recent cryo-sleep, that his society back on Earth has likely died off, that he is the last of his people. He's woken by Lynesse Fourth Daughter, to whose lineage he made a promise some great grandmothers ago, when he last woke up (and broke the Prime Directive) by helping out said great-great (etc.) grandmother. This time, there's a demon to fight...

And the story unfolds. It was very fun to see Nyr from Lynesse (and her ally Esha)'s point of view, and to see them from his. The demon (it can't be a demon, Nyr thinks to himself, but in fact for all intents and purposes it IS a demon, very Stranger Things-ish) is suitably awful and scary.

There were two ways (to my mind) that the story could have ended for Nyr, and I definitely preferred the ending that Tchaikovsky chose, which goes along with his general outlook as I know it from the Children of Time books. About the only niggle I have with the story is that I'm not very satisfied with the finality of the demon vanquishing. I was kind of expecting more exploration/explanation of what it was, which would then let me believe in the permanence of its defeat, but as it's an eldritch horror from the Upside Down, pretty much, ehhhhnnnn, I feel like it might find its way back? But it's gone for now, and that'll have to do.
Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 03:46 pm


Chapter 224: Geeze when Senkuu woke up alone I was so worried, things are the most tense they've ever been since this is the biggest plot point.

"Creeps me out, having you old dudes doting on me." lmao

Okay it's weird seeing them without the cracks/ink on their face.

Chapter 225: Aw, Stanley and Kohaku fist bumping.

OMG Ryuusui hitched a ride?! That little shit. XD

Senkuu looks really good in his space outfit.

Chapter 226-227: It's funny watching Stanley panic when Kohaku almost used the Medusa.

Interesting, they found the USA flag and cosmic rays made the red and blue portion white.

Holy shit, Why-Man mimicked Senkuu's voice to get Kohaku to release the Medusa so he could use it. She managed to throw it far enough away but now they're down a tool.

They found the dark stain on the moon and Senkuu has figured it out!!!

Chapter 228: Seriously a struggle to breathe reading this chapter, now that the answers are coming out.

Gen advising Senkuu from afar. <3 Of course Senkuu still does it his own way. 😂

Why-Man is the Medusa devices themselves is all I'm understanding so far.

Chapter 229: The birds were a test run, no surprise there. I understand a little better this chapter.

Chapter 230: Basically to Why-Man petrification = eternal life, so it kept trying to impose that on them, and it wanted humans to keep them restored as well, it overestimated human intelligence and it took too long for humanity to start waking up.

It must've been hard to see Senkuu swept away like that out of reach. I wonder if Xeno guessed Senkuu's thoughts.

Chapter 231: Wow, Why-Man really left, or at least all but one did. Can it really find another planet with more intelligent life than Earth?

So close to the end now and I think I was spoiled on what happens next?? We'll see.

Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 09:35 pm
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Title: Shore Leave
Author:[personal profile] kat_lair
Fandom: Star Trek: Alternate Original Series 
Pairing: Spock/Uhura
Tags: Drabble, Shore Leave, Established Relationship
Rating: G
Word count: 100

Summary: The surprise has caused him to state the obvious.

Author notes: Spring defiance from under the crushing forces of capitalism = a drabble a day in April. This one for [personal profile] nerakrose who prompted the title and the fandom.

Shore Leave on AO3

Shore Leave )

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Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 04:10 pm
Wrapping up edutainment month, I played Wagotabi, a RPG designed to teach you basic Japanese. I wanted to give the game a fair evaluation so I started way in advance and have played short sessions every day (their recommendation for optimal memorization). As of today I've played for 35 hours across 50 days, and I've completed all the available content so far. The game is in early access and more content is planned for the future, though there isn't a set timeline.

pixel art top down JRPG where player explores a Japanese town. the current quest and dialogue are written in Japanese

The game's story is that you're a student traveling to Japan to learn from the Japanese Masters of each prefecture. (So far only Kagawa and Okayama are available.) This requires a series of quests that involve searching for objects from Japanese folklore. Along the way you learn a few words and points of grammar at a time, immediately using them to talk to NPCs, figure out where to go for side quests, buy food and drinks, and solve puzzles.

読みましょう ! )

Wagotabi: A Japanese Journey is on Steam for $9.99 USD (currently on sale for $7.49). There's also a free demo.
Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 07:32 pm

Posted by /u/johndough167

A book to get under my skin and crawl through my brain like a centipede from hell. After all the “give me your scariest biok recs” posts. I’ve finally come out the other side. I was surprised as all hell that the book that did it was in fact the book that did it. It didn’t really “scare” me but made me feel uncomfortable while reading it.

Gothic by Phillip fracassi

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Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 10:06 pm
Today I finally made my expedition to the mall with rancid vibes! The plan was: 5 min. walk ➡️ 33 min. on bus ➡️ 10 min. walk to suburban shopping center.

Right away, on the way there I missed my bus stop and had to walk back a kilometer from the next one. The signs pointing the way to the mall just petered out when the huge fortress came in sight, and so did the sidewalk; and having never approached it other than by car, I couldn't see a way in. I ended up hiking around half of it and walking into the parking garage, and I arrived overheated even though it was cold and so windy my eyes kept watering behind my sunglasses.

At the mall I did find the main things I was looking for, but I also got confused trying to say my phone number out loud in Finnish and could only recover it by writing it; and also later got flustered and went to a café with mediocre baked goods instead of the bakery I had been planning to eat at. There were TWO sets of charity facers camped out in the main intersections of the mall, too, which added random anxiety that the day didn't need.

When leaving I found the route back to the sidewalk, which requires walking through the grounds of the apartment block next to the mall. (There's a taxi stand on the opposite side, so you must be able to reach a sidewalk there, but that's useless for my bus route.) My hip and knee both started feeling slightly stiff as I was walking back to the bus, something that has never happened when I was out walking before, and I had to slow down a bit because I couldn't stop and do range of motion exercises there. And then I got lost trying to follow the map to the bus stop, and ended up at the wrong bus stop and had to look up directions from there, and missed the bus, but that all took so long that by the time I got to the right bus stop the next one was less than 10 minutes away.

The part of the edge of Turku where this mall is has very little pedestrian infrastructure - it's highways and overpasses and no shade and parking lots. It does have paved sidewalk/bike paths beside the road, but they are plainly a grudging afterthought. It FEELS hostile there. In future if I need to go to a mall by bus I will definitely take the hour trip to downtown Turku instead, even though that will mean lots more people around. (And if you're going by car, Mylly is a much nicer mall than Skanssi.)
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Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 03:21 pm
 2X Morgana Pendragon(BBC Merlin), 2X Jiang Yanli(the Untamed)
   

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