Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 04:06 pm
Douqi recently asked me if I'd put all my FenQing (To Ember's We Return) art in one place and the answer was a resounding No <3 ahhaha until today!

Put them up in 2 spots for image hosting reasons, as follows. Be warned, some pieces in there are NSFW! All the characters included are mentioned in the alt text.  I'm gonna try my best to update as I make more! 

- Dreamwidth Post

- Tumblr Post

Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 06:09 pm

⌈ Secret Post #7054 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.


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More! )


Notes:

Secrets Left to Post: 01 pages, 13 secrets from Secret Submission Post #1007.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.
Thursday, April 30th, 2026 10:57 am
[community profile] polyamships' questions for [community profile] 3weeks4dreamwidth:

29 April: Self rec time! what poly fanwork of yours are you most proud of? share it here! Not a creator? Then who's your favorite fandom creator? Time to share!!!

I have too many fics, and I'm really bad at favourites or "most proud of"s, so I'm choosing one per fandom, and even that is pretty random/hard. ;-p

Due South

This one is about 2/3rds relationship negotiation and 1/3rd porn. I'd written a bunch of Ray/Ray bringing Fraser into the relationship at this point, and I wanted to try Fraser/Vecchio bringing Kowalski in. Which took more words than you'd think!

Title: The Invitation (8824 words) [Explicit]
Fandom: due South
Relationships: Benton Fraser/Ray Vecchio/Ray Kowalski
Additional Tags: First Time, Post-Canon, Threesome - M/M/M
Summary:

But Ray had already turned on Fraser again. "You don't want me yourself, but I'm the go-to guy when your boyfriend has an itch you can't scratch?"


White Collar

My first fic in White Collar fandom. It starts off a little bitsy (I posted it as I went, in parts on LiveJournal), but hits its stride after a while, and I really like some of the exploration of feelings in here, as well the boundless trust issues that come with integrating a con artist parolee into one's respectable suburban married life.

Title: The Reasonable Doubt 'verse (45916 words) [Explicit]
Fandom: White Collar
Relationships: Elizabeth Burke/Peter Burke/Neal Caffrey
Characters: Elizabeth Burke, Peter Burke, Neal Caffrey, June, Mozzie, Satchmo
Additional Tags: First Time, Episode Related, Threesome - F/M/M, Con Artists, Married Couple, Work Relationships, Trust Issues, Podfic Available
Summary:

Peter's changing, and it doesn't take a genius to figure out why. He gets a light in his eye when he talks about work. He's relaxed, happier, more willing to indulge in romantic moments. He sings in the shower, kisses her in the kitchen. When they make love, he looks into her eyes, and she can feel it—all that attention she used to crave. It's giddying.

Neal isn't taking anything away from Elizabeth. He's giving her back the man she married.


While You Were Sleeping (2017 Kdrama)

One of my first WYWS fics, and aside from anything else, I think I really nailed Jae Chan's dorkiness. Hee! And also Woo Tak's yearning, and Hong Joo's cheerful bulldozing.

Title: The end of lonely (2480 words) [General Audiences]
Fandom: 당신이 잠든 사이에 | While You Were Sleeping (TV)
Relationships: Han Woo Tak/Jung Jae Chan/Nam Hong Joo
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Threesome - F/M/M, First Dates, First Kiss, First Aid, Driving all night, That Kdrama trope where the sunrise is always conveniently timed
Summary:

Woo Tak thinks even if tonight isn’t a date, he’ll come out to his friends. (Sequel to "I see you when I close my eyes".)


Guardian

This has Ye Huo working through his feelings for the others, in particular, going from seeing Guo Changcheng as a klutzy kid to someone who has matured and is desirable. And then there is a LOT of sex. This may actually be the porniest of my Guardian fic.

Title: Every Shimmer Is A Searchlight (15909 words) [Explicit]
Fandom: 镇魂 | Guardian (TV 2018)
Relationships: Chu Shuzhi/Guo Changcheng/Ye Huo
Characters: Ye Huo, Chu Shuzhi, Guo Changcheng
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Alternate Universe - Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, Threesome - M/M/M, Pining, Friends to Lovers, Idiots in Love, Polyamory, Consent, Talking During Sex, negotiating sex, First Time, everyone's a switch, Let's say Dixingren can't catch or pass on STDs, AKA I couldn't be bothered with condoms, Traces of angst, Belonging
Series: Part 1 of This Sunsettled Life (Chu Shuzhi/Guo Changcheng/Ye Huo)
Summary:

“We’re asking you out,” says Guo Changcheng. “Or—well, asking you in. If you want to.”

Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 05:33 pm
I'm horribly behind on the Question a Day - April - Meme - so, I'm just going to finish out the month while I have the opportunity. I was going to read more of "This Kingdom Will Not Kill Me" but the vagus nerve associated with my neck is bothering me today - and I'd need to well bend over the book? Had troubles reading on the train for the same reason. It's the weather - which is turning again, and as a result my arthritis is flaring up. (I may go back to audio books - actually, that was why Masq (from ATPOBTVS) started on audio books, back and neck issues.)

22. If you took part in a quiz, what would be your specialist subject?

Probably movies, television, theater and fictional books. I have an insane amount of trivia knowledge in that arena. For some reason or other, my brain holds onto that sort of data? When I played Jeopardy on my phone - every time it did that category - I won. Same with Trivia pursuit.

23. In 1895, Ngaio Marsh, New Zealand detective writer and producer, was born in Christchurch, New Zealand. Have you ever read any of her detective novels? If not, who is your favourite detective novelist?

Yes, a couple. It's been a long time since I read them though - and I get her confused with PD James (who I prefer and have read more of). Neither are my favorite. My favorite is the Master - Agatha Christie. I read all of her books. I did find Peters Vicky Bliss mysteries up to and including The Night Train to Memphis - to be fun and memorable. I always wished those novels had been adapted in a series or movies. But alas, no.

I also loved Minette Walters, another British mystery writer - whose first novel was adapted. Not sure any others were. She would be a close second to Agatha Christie.

24. It’s Barbara Streisand’s birthday – are you a fan of her music or movies?

I didn't realize she was born in April. So is my niece and brother. Fan? Not really? I'm not sure I'd call myself a fan exactly? I enjoy her music and her movies. Like her music better - she has an amazing range. One of the original belters. Her movies are a mixed bag, unfortunately. But I have enjoyed several of them. Her better ones were when she was younger...

She's the same age as my mother and Harrison Ford.

25. When’s the last time you had to use a plumber?

I can't remember? I always call the Super, and they tend to fix the problem if I can't.

26. Do you still have a landline, or do you only use your mobile phone/cellphone?

Yes. Although not sure why - since it's not really a landline but through a cable bundle? Phone, cable and internet. It does make the other two cheaper, but it would probably be cheaper just to have the internet. I just don't want to deal with figuring out how to return the equipment.

27. What sweets/candies do you remember from your childhood? When was the last time you ate some?

Butterfingers, Kit Kats, 3 Musketeers, Big Chew Gum, those sour balls that you can suck for hours and they change flavors and colors, sweet tarts, colored sugar in straws (can't remember the name of it)...

I had a 3 Musketeers about a year ago. The rest, I can't eat any longer - too much sugar or they have gluten. Kit Kats are a thing of the past - I can't have them at all. Butterfingers are possible - but high in sugar, as are all the rest.

I don't know what I did? But sugar got angry at me. So did gluten. And here we are.

28. In 2004, Shrek the sheep from Tarras, Central Otago, New Zealand, was finally shorn live on TV after 6 years of avoidance; the fleece weighed 27 kg (60 lb). Do you own, or have you made anything from sheep’s wool?

There's a sheep named Shrek? Oh that's hilarious. Did they name it after the movie Shrek?

Yes, I have wool - not a lot, I find it itchy. But I have wool sweaters. I even have a knitted wool blanket. At least I think it is wool - it might be alpaca.

29. When was the last time you received a letter (not junk mail)?

God knows. I've no clue. I miss letters. I think it might have been five years ago - from my mother? She has sent me cards - do those count? The rest of the family uses Facebook or Texts.

And my penpals are on social media now.

30. In 2018, Sweden's official Twitter account confirmed that Swedish meatballs actually originated in Turkey. Do you like Swedish meatballs? Ever had them in IKEA?

Yes. My mother used to make them a lot - with rice. But I can't have them now - because they contain gluten. I suppose you could make them without?
But I've also kind of limited red meat intake - because it doesn't agree with me any longer. So, I eat it sparingly, if at all.

***

I should have put that under a cut, but I didn't feel like it. It's been one of those days.

***

Today I finally "attempted" to schedule my X-rays, only to be reminded of why I was procrastinating?

So I call the Trinity location in Manhattan.
hell is scheduling x-rays )

Oh well, if it doesn't work - I'll try Lennox Hill in Cobble Hill, which has openings on weekends. I just hate their portal and it's difficult to share with other doctors.

I'm worried about my vagus nerve - which apparently affects the gut and the head, and causes all sorts of issues if out of wack.

***

So, I gave up on Firebird and went over to Scalzi's Locked-In (I may go back to Firebird, not sure yet.) John Scalzi is kind of the Stephen King of Sci-Fi writing. Read more... )

Book Instagram is odd? Very young. And kind of whiny? Apparently book reviews and book blogging has been replaced with book podcasting?? Where everybody and their mother gives book reviews via podcasts. Some of them are paid to do this? Why? Read more... )
Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 06:08 pm
Title: wolfgang ♡ kala ♡ rajan: I see God in you / thank God for gravity
Fandom: Sense8
Characters/Pairings: Wolfgang/Kala/Rajan
Notes:
Imported from my tumblr [tumblr.com profile] heavensenthale. Originally made for [community profile] polyamships PolyamShippingDay July 2022 for the prompt: Devotion.
(This is the first time I post here. I hope this is all the info I need)


Rajan and Kala from Sense8 dancing happily at their engagement party. In the middle it reads "I see God in you"
Kala and Wolfgang from Sense8 leaning towards each other about to kiss. In the middle it reads "thank god for gravity"

Read more... )
Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 11:25 pm
Some memes, because I've had two very stressful work days in a row and I need something fun :)

The last….

Last things I did... )

Random Sentences Meme

[Smile emoji] )

Music Shuffle Meme

Shuffle shuffle... )

The ABC's of Me

Easy as 1 2 3 )

Lastly, an interactive one.

"Icon" Meme

"Reply to this post saying 'icon', and I will tell you my favourite icon of yours. (If you want to) post this to your own journal using your own favourite icon!"

The last four memes were from this post on [community profile] 3weeks4dreamwidth.
Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 04:58 pm
[personal profile] goodbyebird suggested this meme at [community profile] 3weeks4dreamwidth and it sounded fun, if challenging for me, because, well:

Put your mp3 player/phone/streaming collection on shuffle, and write down the first line of the first twenty songs. Post the poem that results.


Folks, I mostly listen to Final Fantasy music, which is largely instrumental! I don't think writing 20 lines of "Doo doo doo doo DOOO doo, doo-doo-doo doo doo doo doo doo" would make a good poem. Still, I wanted to give this a try, so I did the following:

1. Have iTunes set to Autoplay, which is its default mode now.
2. Play songs until one with lyrics played.
3. Write down the first line, if it was the first time the song appeared.
4. Write down the part of the refrain, if it was the second time the song appeared.

I did take some liberties now and then. Technically, the songs from NieR: Automata (which I have not played but listened to, thanks to FFXIV) do have lyrics but they have made-up lyrics, so I opted to skip over those. I also opted for a full phrase on many songs because I thought it made more impact. For "Wayward Daughter" I chose the first line in English. Finally, I limited it to 10 songs because they were starting to get repetitive.

Here's the result:

  1. Seeking the peace of reason ("Locus" - FFXIV: Heavensward)

  2. Westward lies bleed t'ward the east ("Wayward Daughter" - FFXIV: Stormblood)

  3. Staring at death, I take a breath, there's nothing left ("Oblivion - Never Let It Go Version" - FFXIV arrangement albums]

  4. Specie tua tantum carnem adme omnes habet cultum. [Through you alone there will be worship.] ("Apocalypsis Aquarius" - FFXV)

  5. For whom weeps the storm / Her tears on our skin / The days of our years gone / Our souls soaked in sin / These memories ache with the weight of tomorrow ("Shadowbringers", FFXIV: Shadowbringers)

  6. Wanting, I lie / Too weary to die / Too lost to the ice for saving / My sins claim me, untame me ("Return to Oblivion" - FFXIV: Shadowbringers)

  7. Beneath the gazing stars / Vales deep and forests dark / Betrayed by loyal hands, Her wrath stirred ("Heavensward", from the FFXIV expac of the same name)

  8. Let go this destiny, you're caught in a trance / Ever marking time inside a dream, no sign of advance ("Band: Locus" - FFXIV arrangment albums)

  9. The road that we walk / Is lost in the flood / Here proud angels bathe in / Their wages of blood / At this, the world's end, do we cast off tomorrow ("Insatiable", FFXIV:Shadowbringers)

  10. These voices screaming to let it go (never let go) / This time I'm screaming back no no no (go on say no) / My mind's made up, yeah my fear is gone (Where have you gone?) / Open my eyes now here I come, oblivion ("Oblivion - Never Let It Go Version" - FFXIV arrangement albums]


LOTS OF FFXIV. But yeah, the soundtracks that I own are mostly FFXIV soundtracks, so that's what iTunes thinks I want to hear.

This is the full list of songs that played, minus one from Animal Crossing that was thrown at me that I didn't include because I don't play Animal Crossing. So, 25 songs (including the Animal Crossing) one to get my 10 lines, and some of those ten songs were duplicates.

Full listLocus [FFXIV: Heavensward]
Westward Tide [FFXIV: Stormblood]
Wayward Daughter [FFXIV: Stormblood]
Home Sweet Home [Final Fantasy XV: Episode Prompto]
City Ruins - Rays of Light [from NieR: Automata, but also FFXIV: Shadowbringers)
Oblivion - Never Let It Go Version [Final Fantasy XIV: Heavensward]
No Risk, No Reward [FFXVI, arrangement by Husky by the Geek]
Battle Theme (FFX)
"Apocalypsis Aquarius" [FFXV]
"Rolanberry Fields" [FFXI, arranged by the Nanaa Mihgo's]
"Crimson Sunset (Piano)" [FFXIV: Stormblood]
Shadowbringers [FFXIV, from expac of same name]
The Sanctuary of Zi'TaH [FFXI]
Song of the Ancients (Atonement) [NieR: Automata, but also FFXIV: Shadowbringers]
Piano: Serenity [FFXIV: A Realm Reborn]
Band: Locus [FFXIV arrangment albums]
Paradigm Shift [FFXII-2]
Largo from "Winter" The Seaosns [recorded by Arnie Roth playing violin]
On Windy Meadows [FFXIV Version 1.0 Limsa Lominsa area theme]
Noctis [FFXV - such a sweet song, I adore it]
Ink Long Dry: Piano [FFXIV, played by Keiko]
Insatiable [FFXIV: Shadowbringers]
Selbina [FFXI]
FFI: Chaos Temple [Arranged by Fantasy Reborn]


In a nutshell: Final Fantasy music is good! If you want to give it a try, you can find the Square Enix Music Channel on YouTube. There's also a lot of songs on iTunes and Spotify!
Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 02:44 pm
Another reason I lost interest in coin collecting is the decreasing use of coins in our society. As recently as the end of the state quarters program in 2008 I would always have a fistful of coins in my pocket, and could search through any new arrivals for state quarters.

But now I rarely have coins at all, and I tend to decant any I get on arriving home. I just don't need them any more.

This is partly because of the decreasing value of coins. It's been years since you could buy anything, except maybe an hour on a parking meter in a low-congestion district - and they're mostly coin-free now - for a quarter. If you use coins at all, they're just markers on the way up to a greater value.

But just as much it's the move to cards. I was at the Freight & Salvage on Saturday for a concert by a Scottish folkish band called Gnoss (silent G) - it was all right, typical fiddle-driven fast music with occasional slower songs - and I stopped by the food counter for a snack. I picked up a bag of peanuts, $1.10 with tax. I remembered I had a dime in my pocket as well as a dollar bill, and I was reaching to pull them out when the clerk said "We're cards only." So, I now have a credit card charge for $1.10. Sheesh.
Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 06:00 pm
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He provided the emotional voice of the show, concerned with morality and humanity, as a foil to Spock’s cold logic. The two operated as opposing angels on the shoulders of Captain James T. Kirk; only with their input could he make a proper decision. The relationship among them is often referred to by fans as The Big Three and “The Triad.”

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Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 10:33 pm
I wrote a fic for The Pitt! Not the one I had originally been meaning to write, which I do still plan to. This one was supposed to be one I knocked out over the weekend, but it got quite a bit longer. Here it is.

a woman can't survive by her own breath alone (7491 words) by raven
Fandom: The Pitt (TV)
Relationships: Melissa "Mel" King/Trinity Santos, Trinity Santos & Dennis Whitaker, Michael "Robby" Robinavitch & Trinity Santos
Characters: Melissa "Mel" King, Trinity Santos, Dennis Whitaker, Michael "Robby" Robinavitch
Additional Tags: Trinity Santos and Dennis Whitaker are Roommates, Trinity Santos is Bad at Feelings, Canon Lesbian Character, references to past sexual abuse
:

“I don’t need a fucking script, Huckleberry!” Trinity says, furious. “I can ask a girl out, jesus.”

“I mean, that’s weird,” Whitaker says. “Because you haven’t. Like, that’s what this entire conversation is about.”

Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 10:47 am
I was asked to chat about these by [personal profile] dswdiane, and doing so will help me to track them down and organize them, because it's been a very long time since I've dug through my folder of Back Burner Items. I forgot how much stuff I had actually written bits of, in the grip of my Jeremiah mania. So here goes nothing, arranged by type of nothing.

And in the full spirit of the thing, I'll post a little excerpt from each rough draft. Then I will go hide. :)

This is really long, fyi )
Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 04:29 pm


Can you guess how old she is?
Original is here on Pixelfed.scot.

Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 04:31 pm
I've adored the two volumes in Adrian Tchaikovsky's Children of Time series (and fully intend to read the other two), but I've been daunted in trying to branch out because the guy is SO prolific. But thanks to the recommendation of someone on here, I landed on Elder Race. It's a novella--handy! I read it in airports on my way to and from Leticia, and it was absolutely right for me, because putting aside the plot, what it's about is communication across a chasm of cultural difference, when you're not sure how what you're saying is being received, and you're also not sure if what you're understanding of what you hear is what the speaker intends. And on top of that, you're dealing with vast differentials in resources and--so you arrogantly assume (you're right in some respects, but very wrong in others)--knowledge.

It's also about what's wrong with the Prime Directive, namely, that once you're watching a thing, observing a thing, you're party to it, part of it. Your act of watching changes reality. Like with photons, or whatever. Schrödinger Heisenberg etc. If you weren't there, then yes, things would just unfold however they were going to unfold, but you are there, and so if you decide not to get involved, then it means you're permitting whatever bad things might happen that you might be capable of stopping.

Don't get me wrong: messing around and getting involved can be equally bad. All I'm saying is that once you're there, you ARE involved, and doing nothing is as much of a game changer as doing something.

Nyr is the resource-having character, assailed by depression because he's realized, upon being wakened from his most recent cryo-sleep, that his society back on Earth has likely died off, that he is the last of his people. He's woken by Lynesse Fourth Daughter, to whose lineage he made a promise some great grandmothers ago, when he last woke up and broke the Prime Directive by helping out said great-great (etc.) grandmother. This time, there's a demon to fight...

And the story unfolds. It was very fun to see Nyr from Lynesse (and her ally Esha)'s point of view, and to see them from his. The demon (it can't be a demon, Nyr thinks to himself, but in fact for all intents and purposes it IS a demon, very Stranger Things-ish) is suitably awful and scary.

There were two ways (to my mind) that the story could have ended for Nyr, and I definitely preferred the ending that Tchaikovsky chose, which goes along with his general outlook as I know it from the Children of Time books. About the only niggle I have with the story is that I'm not very satisfied with the finality of the demon vanquishing. I was kind of expecting more exploration/explanation of what it was, which would then let me believe in the permanence of its defeat, but as it's an eldritch horror from the Upside Down, pretty much, ehhhhnnnn, I feel like it might find its way back? But it's gone for now, and that'll have to do.
Wednesday, April 29th, 2026 04:06 pm
books
The Jeeves Omnibus Vol. 2:
Right Ho, Jeeves: skipped bc I just read it in another volume.
Joy in the Morning: 1947. Eh. Not his best work.
Carry On, Jeeves: 1925. MY FAVORITE! SO GOOD!

The Best Kind of American: A True Story of Murder, War, and America's Undoing in the Middle East by Kim Ghattas. 2026. ARC. Read twice so I could write a coherent review. This book is a tour de force of investigative journalism, an extraordinary journey covering the last 50-ish years in the Middle East, from the Carter Administration to the current Trump regime. Structured around the murder of Malcolm Kerr, the president of American University Beirut, by Iranian-controlled assassins, and the story of his family, it explores a wildly complicated conflict centered on Lebanon, but involving Israel, Iran, Syria, France, the US, Germany, and others. Hamas, Hezbollah, Islamic Jihad, and various splinter groups are contextualized in their struggle against Israeli and Western powers. Most importantly, Ghattas is unbiased, putting blame where it's due in all corners. Contains multiple murders, kidnappings, hijackings, and episodes of torture -- war on many levels -- but also the search for justice through the courts for the Kerr family. Highly recommended.

The Cloak and Its Wizard by R.Z. Nicolet. 2026. Magical sentient cloak chooses a middle-aged female neurosurgeon as its new wearer. I did not see the superheroes coming and thus did not care...until suddenly I did. The last half of the novel is pretty great, but it takes a bit to get rolling.

Israel: What Went Wrong? by Omer Bartov. 2026. Excellent contextualization of the Israeli-Palestinian conflict from 1948 through the cease fire of late last year. Includes the October 7 attacks & Israel's retaliation. Goes into Israel's lack of a constitution and the consequences of that. Discusses the charges of apartheid, brought by South Africa, against Israel in the International Criminal Court. Finally, suggests 4 different plans for peace between Israel and Palestine. My opinion: Israel desperately needs a constitution, and Bibi desperately needs to spend the rest of his life in prison for war crimes. Which aligns me with Israeli leftists. This is a grim book, but it's relatively short. There's a bibliography, but no notes.

currently reading: The Jeeves Omnibus Vol. 3: The Mating Season (1949) / Ring for Jeeves (1953) / Very Good, Jeeves! (1930).

healthcrap
left hand + wrist still hurt a great deal, so no yarning. Didn't go to yarn group. Have been sleeping really a lot and not getting up until way too late, despite four alarms. Replaced coffee with tea. Sleep disorders suck.

astrology
full moon in Scorpio this Friday just as the protests are kicking off. Later in the day, Mercury conjoins Chiron in Aries. An apt time for airing grievances. A bit more potential for violence than I'm entirely happy with, but I'm hoping for the best.

#resist
May 1: No Kings 4!

I hope all of you are doing well! <333