No, I think it's good in the long run. Getting angry. Not always maybe, but for reasons like this. And I am suddenly grateful for the perspective that must needs be knocked into a transplanted person, since it seems to mean that the things which do still trigger have less power over me than they did even a week ago.

Even through the initial reaction there was this fist-clenching, lip-curling, belly-deep growl. If she thinks this is an abomination, she has no idea.

There is a horrible assumption by the Narnia fandom that an author who does not write that "un-Christian" yucky stuff must condemn it as they do. Silence, in service of the story, is construed as agreement or approval. That is a profound error.

I know. I hate that.

at this point only sheer cussedness in refusing to be driven out keeps me there

I am glad that you're still there. I know too that ff.net does have a review culture that I miss, especially when poking around other sites, and once in a flickering while I think about going back, but then I try, and Stuff Happens. Also at this point I know if I felt I could ever go back, it would have to be with a much different story than I've ever done before, and right now, selfishly, I don't think that's a situation I'm equipped for.

I just really admire and appreciate that you are there, and so far are equipped with the stubbornness to keep you there. It's a needful thing.