Conversation stops when she walks in the room, but it's not a silence Susan wants to recognize. Lucy's smile is so pained and loving while Peter stalks off and Edmund follows after him with a nod, but it's the apologetic nod of a diplomat and Susan feels frozen inside.
She doesn't ask what they were talking about when she sits with Lucy because it hurts too much already. It's like they're all children again and her brothers are squabbling over who gets to lead and Lucy is just annoyingly delightful, but she is just Susan the Bore.
But this is worse--Susan the Bore is better than Susan the Traitor and she wishes they could just put these games aside.
(Why can't they see that they weren't wanted--none of them, not even ever loyal Lucy and where the hell is the justice in that?)
She misses her siblings long before their funerals.
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She doesn't ask what they were talking about when she sits with Lucy because it hurts too much already. It's like they're all children again and her brothers are squabbling over who gets to lead and Lucy is just annoyingly delightful, but she is just Susan the Bore.
But this is worse--Susan the Bore is better than Susan the Traitor and she wishes they could just put these games aside.
(Why can't they see that they weren't wanted--none of them, not even ever loyal Lucy and where the hell is the justice in that?)
She misses her siblings long before their funerals.