He can’t remember the specifics of being fifteen, not even his own fifteen; a mercy, he supposes, as fifteen was a time of blue skies, green grass and yellow sun, of red apples, golden pancakes and rain that you thoughtlessly raised a hood against instead of lifting your face to the sky and luxuriating in its patter on your cheeks; it was a time of freedom and possibility and love, though at the time he saw it mostly as duty and suffocation and fear.
But he knows what - who - he likes *now*, even if he can’t have her, even if he’s lost her (even if, in his arrogance, his lack of trust, his lack of confidence and judgment, his infinite weariness) he threw her away.
And if, more than twice fifteen, having seen what he’s seen, done what he's done, he finds her - it - hard to resist, than how hard could it be to get his younger (softer, gentler, kinder, needier, hopeful, better) self to follow its lead, to do what he needs him to do, across a vast ocean of time that, these days, it seems everyone but him can travel?
She - it - puts her hand on his shoulder and answers him: "Not hard at all."
Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles (Future John and Cameron)
He can’t remember the specifics of being fifteen, not even his own fifteen; a mercy, he supposes, as fifteen was a time of blue skies, green grass and yellow sun, of red apples, golden pancakes and rain that you thoughtlessly raised a hood against instead of lifting your face to the sky and luxuriating in its patter on your cheeks; it was a time of freedom and possibility and love, though at the time he saw it mostly as duty and suffocation and fear.
But he knows what - who - he likes *now*, even if he can’t have her, even if he’s lost her (even if, in his arrogance, his lack of trust, his lack of confidence and judgment, his infinite weariness) he threw her away.
And if, more than twice fifteen, having seen what he’s seen, done what he's done, he finds her - it - hard to resist, than how hard could it be to get his younger (softer, gentler, kinder, needier, hopeful, better) self to follow its lead, to do what he needs him to do, across a vast ocean of time that, these days, it seems everyone but him can travel?
She - it - puts her hand on his shoulder and answers him: "Not hard at all."